A very wise professor told me before I came to München to “soak it up” – to take it all in and to simply soak everything up. In the hustle and bustle of school and internship, these were grace-filled words for me to hear. He didn’t say “you have to do this, this, this, and this while you’re there.” He just said “soak it up.” And with that, I was free to get into anything and everything! (There are, of course, still some requirements for studying!)
I’ve been thinking a lot about what it means to “soak it up.” About what I want to learn here, about what I want to return home knowing. About what it means to absorb life to the fullest.
Over the past few weeks, I’ve been reading One Thousand Gifts: A Dare to Live Fully Right Where You Are by Ann Voskamp. A dear friend gave this to me as a gift before I left and I’ve been slowly reading and chewing on Voskamp’s poetic and insightful words ever since. The book is about the author’s journey towards living a life of eucharisteo (“to express gratitude for benefits or blessings – ‘to thank, thanksgiving, thankfulness.'” – where the word “Eucharist” comes from!). Her journey is about learning to give thanks for the little as well as the big things in life. To give thanks for the good things, as well as learning how to live a life of thankfulness in the awful, difficult things. At the urging of her friend, she begins writing a list of one thousand things she experiences as gifts.
After reading the book, I’ve been inspired to take up such a practice and it’s made me sit up and pay attention. Each day, heading to my German course, I have a ten minute walk to the bus, a ten minute ride on the bus, a five minute wait for the U-Bahn, a fifteen minute ride to one station where I change trains and then ride another ten minutes to the stop for my class. Finally, it’s a three to five minute walk to the building where the class is. I say this not to point out that it’s a complicated commute, but to show that that’s a lot of time and many different places in which to see the gifts of God. Thinking about gifts, giving thanks, and soaking up life, I’ve been keeping my eyes open to see what God is up to. And it’s not just about seeing either – I’ve been paying more attention to sounds, to the feel and texture of things, the taste of delicious food, and even to different smells! It’s been working on my heart, too – keeping it open to the possibilities, the unexpected, the things that I normally miss. My heart has been more open to seeing things in a different light – maybe even in God’s light…
Back to this idea of “soak it up…” Sponges soak things up. The German word for “sponge” is Schwamm. It’s a pretty fun word. But as I think about it, it seems to be connected to the word for “swim” (schwimmen, schwamm, schwomm, geschwommen). Ok, sponges come from the ocean – that much should be clear. But more than that, sponges seem to passively absorb things. Swimming, on the other hand,…that’s active. That means diving in, moving through the water, swimming to the bottom and coming back up for air to see where you are and what’s going on. Swimming is actively engaging in an environment.
And there’s another connection I’m seeing with this soaking up life idea, giving thanks, being fully present and engaged, and swimming. Any guesses?! It’s baptism! In baptism, we were washed clean and freed through Christ’s death and resurrection to engage fully in the world. To really live – to engage in the world. To soak it all up.
So that’s what I’m trying to do while I’m here – to try out as much as I can, to embrace the opportunities life presents, to live fully present and in deep gratitude and appreciation of all that I’ve been given – of all that we’ve been given. In Christ, we all have been freed to dive in and experience life as it’s happening. I can dive in and accept the invitation to drink Korean tea with my housemates or have wonderful spontaneous conversations with people from all over the world. I can dive in and join fellow theology students for translation sessions. I can spend a few moments in a busy day looking at gorgeous red flowers peeking out of window boxes. I can smile at a child’s laughter on the train or a tired dog sleeping at the sun. I can soak up München. I can soak up Frederick. I can soak up life.
There’s a blessing I have loved ever since I read it in Common Prayer: A Liturgy for Ordinary Radicals:
“May the peace of the Lord Christ go with you : wherever he may send you;
may he guide you through the wilderness : protect you through the storm;
may he bring you home rejoicing : at the wonders he has shown you;
may he bring you home rejoicing : once again into our doors.”
To me, this speaks not only of bringing me home to America rejoicing at what I’ve seen here in Germany, but also to one day (when the time comes!) bringing me home to God. A journey home that involves rejoicing and giving thanks each and every day of my life.
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